The butterflies in my stomach

The butterflies in my stomach have never left me throughout the many trials and tribulations of 2016. Happiness, anger, regret, love, and every other mixture of emotions have passed through me this year. With every moment during each emotion the butterflies in my stomach never left. The soft flutters I felt with happiness and love,…

Chonged

Never in my life had I been more paranoid than the hours I spent high. I was paranoid because I was high and had never been high before, but I was also extremely pissed off because being high wasn’t my choice. I am highly against getting high in any forms. Whether it’s by smoking weed…

Hurt people, hurt people

Under no circumstances should one broken and hurt person ever run to another broken and hurt person for covering. It’s dangerous and extremely unhealthy. You don’t come into something a half person. Most people think you bring half and I bring half and we can be one, NO! I have in my past also thought…

Not selfish, self loved

Self love is tough. We are our own worst critics, and often we criticize ourselves in areas of our lives that go unnoticed by others. Although most people would say and think that my life is perfect, it’s so far from it. BUT I make it look so. It’s actually a defense mechanism I use….

A Virtuous Woman

What does it mean to be virtuous? This is something I have wondered since I was very young, about 12 years old. One of my favorite movies, The Legend of Johnny Lingo, mentioned it in a scene and since then I have wondered what it meant to be virtuous. In the scene a king from…

I am a Christian

Let me tell you that God is good! He is so good…all the time. After faithfully attending New Hope Las Vegas for 6 months, I proclaimed my belief in God and his words being true. After an awesome worship and service I stood with my hands up at the front of church, crying, and reciting…

No message in a bottle 

There isn’t a secret message at the bottom of the bottle… I PROMISE ___ The background… Drinking wasn’t always a problem for me. I used to be able to drink and know my limits. I know that to be a fact, but I don’t exactly remember the last time that I could casually drink. Everything…

Why I stayed..

They say you never know a situation until you’re in it. It’s one of the most truthful things anyone has ever said. I never thought I would ever be in a relationship that was in any way harmful to me. I had heard about it, I had saved friends and family from those relationships, but…

Splenda dating 

When you’re young dating and having a boyfriend seems like the best thing ever. Much like a lot of things, once you’re an adult it proves itself to be absolute shit. Almost three years ago I was thrown into the big bad dating world. After no longer being with my “high school sweetheart” I was…

You are missing from me

“Tu me manques” — Most days I am unsure of which pain is worse , the shock of what happened or the ache for what never will . I can’t tell if it’s killing me or making me stronger . — I will never know what it is like to hold you on the outside….

Nalani Rae 

There I was leaning out the door of the car throwing up all over the garage. After countless days of feeling sick, and sleeping like a bear during hibernation I took the test that changed my life.  Before I could even leave the bathroom, two lines displayed so clearly. Just then I knew, the life…

(1) One

3:05 AM My first blog ever …  We live lives so out of the ordinary to others, lives with such great stories. So in my blog I plan to share my life and tell my story. It’s not a picture perfect story, but it’s a story worth sharing. The universe has it’s own way of…